From the bedroom to the alter....

Well, you all Knew that i was raped, and that i had a hard Time forgiving the person. Even, Though sometimes i would say i have forgiven him and then Take it right Back.

But, tonight i went to a church Service and i told Myself that even if the Lord was Talking to me, through his word i wouldn't really Reply, because i Know im not ready. However, i found myself at the alter and i was right in Front of the same guy that raped me.

Surprisingly, i poked him on the shoulder and he Looked at me and all we could do was stare at each Other. But, in my eyes all i said was "i forgive you " and tears in his eyes was the response i got.

But, for the first Time i have Finally forgiven him, because after our Little moment i Literally felt a burden flew off my shoulder and all i could do was Look up to the Lord.

because now i really Know that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And after all, this, is truly what the alter is for.

thanks for reading. Remember, Email me at lourushka@gmail.com or Comment for any Other information.

Love you loves.....

7 years ago

7 years ago, this Time i got raped and every anniversary my body goes through the same emotions i felt that day.

I Know that i have come a Long way because Normally i would cut Myself, cry and Drink. But, now im just very quiet.

Maybe, its because i now have a son who i put all my Time and attention in, so i really dont have Time to cry over all this.

Please Comment if you have any Questions or want to Email me @ lourushka@gmail.com

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My Labour Experience!!!! Beautifully Painful!!

It was a Sunday morning 7 am, when my Hubby and i was lying in bed, when i Heard my Hubby said to my; honey your water broke!!!!! At that Point the reality that I'm Gonna push out a child From my vagina hit me like a truck...!!!!

When i rushed to my Mommy house where the car was reality hit my Hubby and he almost fainted (this is so Funny!!!!, I'm still Laughing ) but my grandma Caught him and rubbed him with Alcohol.....!

Then he Decided that he wasn't gonna come with me to the hospital, because he Freaks out when he sees me in pain..!!! He came Later when his son Was born....!

Then i was rushed to the Maternity ward were i was Induced because my water broke so Long ago and i wasn't in any pain....!!!!


To be continued!!!!!

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Dos and don'ts about Pregnancy!

Dos;

1 Always Remember to eat Healthy and often because you are no Longer Eating for one.

2 Do comfortable and safe exercise (but, first ask your Doctor if you and ready).

3 Remember to rest and stay calm during stressing Situations.

4. Talk to God and remember to Talk, sing and read to you Baby.


5 Remember to have sex.


Donts

1 Do not Lift Heavy loads please be very careful.

2 Stay away From stressful Situations

3Do not believe all the myths you Hear okay.

4. Don't be afraid to Ask your doctor question, let them be tired of you rather you sit Down clueless.

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Been Pregnant is not a Crime, neither is it the end of the world!!!

Hey my Lovers, whats up? Today i just want to share a few of the feelings that im feeling!!!!

You guys Know im a Christian and all that but, after i got raped and was trying to Leave it to God and just cope after awhile of doing this on my own i lost strength and i just gave up.

So, i wasnt Living the way a Christian was Supposed to i started partying and all that so Knowing all this i went to my pastor asking him to Remove my Membership From the church. He said that he cant do that i would have to be Removing it to another church....

After getting pregnant, Which was not an Accident my Boyfriend and i of 9 years Decided that we wanted a child and we got pregnant.


I went Back to my pastor to to ask for my membership he was very Rude but you Know what im doing now is Pray for him and forgive him......!!!!!!

because i will never say sorry for Having my Baby to any one, so i would really Love if you all would just stop acting Like im the biggest Sinner in the world.... im good and i serve God not man!!!

And only God can Judge me!!!! #yolo!

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Cutting!!!!!

why do teens self harm themselves? To me its because they are hurting, and let want the pain to go away. people may ask, why hurt yourself if you want the pain to go away?

Well, Listen up! I got raped for years i Blamed Myself and Thought it was my fault, i Thought i was worthless so i started cutting because i wanted to die but also i was scream through the cuts, but no one seemed to Hear or even care!!!!


Do you cut do you want to stop or just want Someone to Talk to??? Im here!!!!


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