Friday, 22 August 2014

From the bedroom to the alter....

Well, you all Knew that i was raped, and that i had a hard Time forgiving the person. Even, Though sometimes i would say i have forgiven him and then Take it right Back.

But, tonight i went to a church Service and i told Myself that even if the Lord was Talking to me, through his word i wouldn't really Reply, because i Know im not ready. However, i found myself at the alter and i was right in Front of the same guy that raped me.

Surprisingly, i poked him on the shoulder and he Looked at me and all we could do was stare at each Other. But, in my eyes all i said was "i forgive you " and tears in his eyes was the response i got.

But, for the first Time i have Finally forgiven him, because after our Little moment i Literally felt a burden flew off my shoulder and all i could do was Look up to the Lord.

because now i really Know that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And after all, this, is truly what the alter is for.

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Love you loves.....

Monday, 18 August 2014

7 years ago

7 years ago, this Time i got raped and every anniversary my body goes through the same emotions i felt that day.

I Know that i have come a Long way because Normally i would cut Myself, cry and Drink. But, now im just very quiet.

Maybe, its because i now have a son who i put all my Time and attention in, so i really dont have Time to cry over all this.

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