The night i lost my INNOCENCE!!!! :-(

There are times in life when we are so very happy and think nothing can possible go wrong, and then something goes wrong. I was nine when my mommy left me at home with my uncle and my other cousins so she could get some "me time" which she needed because i can be such a hand full. Anyways, back to the night when my innocence was ripped away from me. We were all playing and then he told was it was bed time, so i got into bed and then he said i was sleeping with him, which i did not object to. but, now i wish that i had........and then that's when it all happened. When he was through he took his towel and wiped me off. i did not cry because at that moment i did not know what he was doing i thought that it was alright because it was uncle. but i realized i was never the same little princess and more who loved to play with her cousins. all  i wanted to do was to be alone and cry.....

However, one day i went to visit my aunt (this is years after that night) and the radio was playing and the radio announcer was talking about rape and then he or she defined it and  told what it does to someone. And that's when it hit, i stopped and said to my self oh that what uncle did, HE RAPED ME!!! and i was so much more terrified of him because i now know what he had done and what i was feeling.  

All i wanted was to feel like me again in my body. i wanted to be pure and i needed to be ME again.... but fOR years i could never feel that i hated my self i wanted to DIE!!!

but, honestly the only time i found me was in Christ!!! but i was never over night i was a process..... and he can do it for you too okay he loves you and you can find healing in the name of Jesus......He loves me and He will never leave or hurt us.... 

Jesus Christ who died on the cross for our sins loves us!!!!!! love you lovies....to be continued......

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