You are NOT A SEX MACHINE!

 Hey Lovvies, what's up? hope all is well.
Well, let's get right to it. As, the topic suggests i will be writing about sex, and i know this is a topic loved by many and also what the devil is using against young people. For example, telling them that it's impossible to stay pure until marriage. Well, i struggled a lot in this area after the rape; because i thought that i was send here to be a sex machine, because if all these men kept taking advantage of me then that must surely be my purpose on earth.







      NB....  Also, what hurt me the most is that my virginity was stolen from me so when my friends woulds say they are still virgins i would get so angry. Until i heard about a second virginity pledge where you can still be pure and abstain from sex in a KISSN (KEEP IT SIMPLE SAY NO) PROGRAM where you take a pledge to never have sex until marriage by the GRACE OF GOD, because it will get hard.

    So, im saying all of this to say that ladies you are not sex machines you are created wonderfully in the sight of God ( Psalms 139). He loves you with an everlasting love. So just depend on Him for everything and see you the way how Christ sees you NOT SOCIETY!



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CHANGES IN MY LIFE CAUSED BY THE RAPE!

Hey Lovies, it's me again. How are you all doing? Hope you do enjoy my blogs and today i want to share some of the changes i went through because of the rape, so you can more understand someone who has been raped. 

       Firstly, i was a lil princess who loved pink but i lost all that and i immediately started loving black because i didn't feel like a innocence precious princess again. I felt like a dirty, useless, messy piece of trash that was only created to be a sex machine.

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BUT God's word reminds me of the fact that  I AM GOD’S…
·  possession Genesis 17:8/ 1Cor 6:20
·  child John 1:12
·  workmanship Ephesians 2:10
·  friend James 2:23
·  temple 1 Cor 3:16/ 6:16
·  vessel 2 Timothy 2:2
·  co-laborer 1 Timothy 5:18
·  witness Acts 1:8
·  soldier 2 Timothy 2:3
·  ambassador 2 Cor 5:20
·  building 1 Cor 3:9
·  husbandry 1 Cor 3:9
·  minister/instrument Acts 26:16 / 1 Tim 4:6
·  chosen Ephesians 1:4
·  beloved Romans 1:7/ 2 Thess 2:13
·  precious jewel Malachi 3:17
·  heritage 1 Peter 5:3


Secondly, i felt has if i was no one i did not belong but God's word teaches me I HAVE…
·  access to the Father Romans 5:2
·  a home in heaven waiting for me Jn 14:1-2
·  all things in Christ 2 Cor 5:17
·  a living hope 1 Peter 1:3
·  an anchor to my soul Hebrews 6:19
·  a hope that is sure and steadfast Heb 6:19
·  authority to tread on serpents Luke 10:19
·  power to witness Acts 1:8
·  the tongue of the learned Isaiah 50:4
·  the mind of Christ 1 Cor 2:16
·  boldness and access Hebrews 10:19
·  peace with God Romans 5:1
·  faith as a grain of mustard seed Luke 17:6


So, guys don't see yourself has anything less than what God says you are.....
love you lovies..... xoxoxo



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My encounter with the Guy who Raped me!!!

Hey guys! i missed you all so much and yes i know it"s just a week ago i posted my last blog but it's like you guys are apart of my life now.....


Anyways, today i just want to tell you guys about my encounter or might i say my confrontation with the guy who raped me.  I know this might sound crazy because normally we wud not want to confront them but i know in my heart and soul that this is what God want me to do. So, i was at church and i saw him and i was so uneasy in my sit i i just had to talk to him and tell him how i felt. So, i went and called him outside, and as he was approaching me i was so afraid my heart was going faster than Usain Bolt on the track. However, he came up to me and i said you know what i want to talk about right? and he replied "yes because God was sending me to you from last week" i was so amazed at how God was preparing both of us at the same time. Welll we spoke and he ask me did i really do it? now that got me mad!! so i said to him yes you did because i begged you to stop i was in pain and you carried on, you never stopped until you were pleased. And it hurt...... AND AT THIS POINT I WAS RELIVING EVERY SECOND OF AUGUST 18... but i wud never cry in front of him... and when i had finished venting he asked me if i can forgive him and i looked at him almost in tears Adam (name changed for security and personal reasons) i have forgiven you years ago and surprisingly he looked at me and said I AM SORRY.




Guys, i am not saying that after that i immediately got over it but I GOT BACK A PIECE OF MY THAT WAS STOLEN,  I WAS ABLE TO BREATHE AND I WAS ABLE TO LOOK AT MYSELF AS HUMAN ONCE AGAIN AND ALSO I FELT IN CONTROL A LITTLE AGAIN.




I AM NOT SAYING IN NO WAY OR FORM THAT YOU SHOULD GO HUNT DOWN ANYONE AND CONFRONT THEM, BECAUSE IF GOD DID NOT PREPARE  ME FOR THAT I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE GONE THAT WAY. SO, JUST LEAVE IT TO GOD AND TELL OTHERS ABOUT IT (MEANING SOMEONE YOU TRUST) AND I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU....


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Regaining life after being Raped!!!

WELL GUYS WHATS UP? TODAY I WANT TO TALK ABOUT Regaining life after being Raped!!! YOU ALL KNOW THAT IS A SCARY, LONELY AND STRESSING AFTER SUCH AN ORDEAL...


WHAT I DO IS I STAY CLOSE TO GOD MEANING:
1) I TRY I SEE MYSELF THE WAY HE SEES ME.... THAT I AM SPECIAL, I AM ROYAL AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I AM LOVED. BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT AFTER ONE FEELS, WORTHLESS, LIKE A NOBODY AND LIKE A SEX OBJECT.


2) I PRAY A LOT; LITERALLY ABOUT ALL MY FEELINGS. I TELL HIM EVERYTHING  I MAKE HIM MY BEST FRIEND. TALK TO HIM BECAUSE HE LISTENS, I CAN TRUST HIM AND HE NEVER GOSSIPS.






3) I LISTEN TO A LOT OF MUSIC (GOSPEL MUSIC) : YOU KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE MEDITATE, WELL I MEDITATE ON HIS WORD. I MEAN A LOT OF YOUNG PEOPLE LISTEN TO R&B SO WHY NOT LISTEN TO GOSPEL SONGS.  WHICH LEADS ME TO NUMBER 4.



4) I READ A LOT OF THE BIBLE: READ THE BIBLE IS LIKE HEARING IS VERY THOUGHTS AND ITS LITERALLY FOOD FOR THE SOULS.



GUYS, THE ONLY WAY TO GET OVER RAPE AND ANYTHING ELSE IS TO TAKE IT TO THE LORD IN PRAYER, I KNOW THAT RAPE IS VERY PAINFUL AND NOT A LOT OF PEOPLE KNOWS HOW TO DEAL WITH IT BUT GOD DOES..... AND ALSO I DO IF YOU WANT ME TO TALK TO I WILL BE HERE.....


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(passage to read for this week Corinthians 13)

CUTTER: :-(

What does hurting yourself mean? 

Hurting yourself, sometimes called self-injury, is when a person deliberately hurts his or her own body. Some self-injuries can leave scars that won’t go away, while others leave marks or bruises that eventually will go away. These are some forms of self-injury:

• Cutting yourself (such as using a razor blade, knife, or other sharp object to cut the skin)
• Punching yourself or punching things (like a wall)
• Burning yourself with cigarettes, matches, or candles
• Pulling out your hair
• Poking objects through body openings
• Breaking your bones or bruising yourself

Why do some teens want to hurt themselves?  top

Many people cut themselves because it gives them a sense of relief. Some people use cutting as a means to cope with a problem. Some teens say that when they hurt themselves, they are trying to stop feeling lonely, angry, or hopeless. Some teens who hurt themselves have low self-esteem, they may feel unloved by their family and friends, and they may have an eating disorder, an alcohol or drug problem, or may have been victims of abuse.

Teens who hurt themselves often keep their feelings “bottled up” inside and have a hard time letting their feelings show. Some teens who hurt themselves say that feeling the pain provides a sense of relief from intense feelings. Cutting can relieve the tension from bottled up sadness or anxiety. Others hurt themselves in order to “feel.” Often people who hold back strong emotions can begin feeling numb, and cutting can be a way to cope with this because it causes them to feel something. Some teens also may hurt themselves because they want to fit in with others who do it.

If you are hurting yourself, PLEASE GET HELP — It is possible to overcome the urge to cut. There are other ways to find relief and cope with your emotions. Please talk to your parents, your doctor, or an adult you trust, like a teacher or religious leader. ( this are not my thoughts i got it from something i was read on the net) i wanted to share it because it is so true to me bcuz i cut and i am and addict who is getting over it.... so guys you see  all i want to do is help you while you can help me. 

love you lovies xoxoxoxo

LOVE YOURSELF!!!!

Hey guys, it has been a while now. I am really so sorry, but life has been busy.
     Anyways, my blog today is about learning to love yourself! i decided to write about this today because i am just learning to love me, i'm not there fully, but i am getting there. I mean after the rape i lost all respect, love and control of and for myself.



 But, i have learned if you don't  love you no one will. SO LOVE YOURSELF GO ON DATES WITH YOURSELF AND JUST FIND THINGS THAT YOU LIKE TO DO OKAY!!!


LOVE YOU LOVES!! XOXOXO