Anyways, today i just want to tell you guys about my encounter or might i say my confrontation with the guy who raped me. I know this might sound crazy because normally we wud not want to confront them but i know in my heart and soul that this is what God want me to do. So, i was at church and i saw him and i was so uneasy in my sit i i just had to talk to him and tell him how i felt. So, i went and called him outside, and as he was approaching me i was so afraid my heart was going faster than Usain Bolt on the track. However, he came up to me and i said you know what i want to talk about right? and he replied "yes because God was sending me to you from last week" i was so amazed at how God was preparing both of us at the same time. Welll we spoke and he ask me did i really do it? now that got me mad!! so i said to him yes you did because i begged you to stop i was in pain and you carried on, you never stopped until you were pleased. And it hurt...... AND AT THIS POINT I WAS RELIVING EVERY SECOND OF AUGUST 18... but i wud never cry in front of him... and when i had finished venting he asked me if i can forgive him and i looked at him almost in tears Adam (name changed for security and personal reasons) i have forgiven you years ago and surprisingly he looked at me and said I AM SORRY.
Guys, i am not saying that after that i immediately got over it but I GOT BACK A PIECE OF MY THAT WAS STOLEN, I WAS ABLE TO BREATHE AND I WAS ABLE TO LOOK AT MYSELF AS HUMAN ONCE AGAIN AND ALSO I FELT IN CONTROL A LITTLE AGAIN.
I AM NOT SAYING IN NO WAY OR FORM THAT YOU SHOULD GO HUNT DOWN ANYONE AND CONFRONT THEM, BECAUSE IF GOD DID NOT PREPARE ME FOR THAT I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE GONE THAT WAY. SO, JUST LEAVE IT TO GOD AND TELL OTHERS ABOUT IT (MEANING SOMEONE YOU TRUST) AND I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU....
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